After a morning spent chatting with the agent (which actually went well, but still no immediate prospects) and sitting in a specialists office being prodded and told to come back in 90 days for more...I am not in the best mood. Truly. So it is no surprise I am feeling...hopeless. My hope was sucked away into the black hole of jealousy.
To cheer myself up after said doctor prodding, I went to the bookstore sans my babes, still happily at home with grandma. This is a true no-no, I was to come home and relieve her, but I was so upset that the doctor had no thrilling news, I needed a buffer. The bookstore usually give me joy. But today...
Ever see everything the wrong way? I need to fill up my glass, big time. Frustration, envy, jealousy, panic, despondency...they are conspiring to give me a black aura today. I swear, if a rejection comes today...I may be forced to do something drastic...like bleach my hair. Blondes have more fun, right? 
Awww hun, big hugs to you. I understand, I really do. So today, do not check the mail, ignore the inbox, grab a friend and indulge in a girls day out - lots of pampering and what not.
ReplyDeleteYou have nothing to be jealous about. You are an accomplished author. 2 books with HQN, on the shelves, with gorgeous covers. You have an agent, and while it might take time, it will happen. You are surrounded both online and offline by people who luv ya and only want the best for ya.
It will get better. And remember, you sub a lot and often, so don't be too hard on yourself about r's.
Oh, and by the way, you are a damn fine author, lady. :)
And that is the reason you are my friend. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't a horrible person. You have accomplished so much in the writing industy, MORE than some.
ReplyDeleteEverything will look better in a few days I'm sure, if not, go buy some shoes, get your hair did and go and have fun. Leave the writing behind for a day and then come back to it with a fresh mindset. When you pamper yourself physically (beauty spa baby!) you'll mentally pick up too.
HUGS!
Everything Laura said :)
ReplyDeleteSeriously, you rock. You're a great inspiration to a lot of people, and I happen to know you work very hard!
Everything everyone just said, I agree 100%.
ReplyDeleteI admire you a lot, you've done so much. You inspired me when I first started hanging on the eharl boards and you still inspire me cos you write and sub so much. Be proud of yourself!!!
But I understand sometimes you just can't get out of your bad mood.
Hope you're feeling better today!!!